It's true when people say yesterday will not be the same as today. There are changes happening around us everyday; we, as people, change everyday. It's funny actually, how different yesterday can be from tomorrow. Someone new can come in your life, or, something big can happen that will change the whole course of your life. That is exactly what happened to me this summer of 2017.
Summer break. Anything can happen within these three and a half months. You can change your life and lose weight, or be productive and read books. In my case, I snuck out, ate all the food in the world, and drank till I puked it all out. This cycle went on for about a solid four weeks. I met new people beginning of summer. People I never thought I'd ever be friends with. They showed me new things. I experienced everything a typical teenager would in a cheesy western movie. Love, alcohol, cigarettes, parties, heartbreak. That's what my four weeks consisted of. Did I have fun? Yes, I had the time of my life. Am I proud of what my life has come to? Not exactly. Those four weeks of consistent galas made me realize some things. At this point in my life, I'm pretty lost. I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. The other day I craved for God's guidance. That's how I knew I'm not at a very good place at the moment. I felt almost every possible emotion this summer. I'm grateful for the experiences and the moments shared, don't get me wrong. I don't necessarily regret anything, because I know everything happens for a reason. Everything that's happened in my life so far is part of God's plan. So I know I'm meant to be feeling lost right now, I'm meant to reflect on my life. I have abandoned God and his grace. So now I need His guidance more than ever. I know where I'm at in my life right now will help me be the person I'm supposed to be. Summer isn't over yet; let's see what else happens.
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