Just when I thought my 2018 was off to a good start, the DCAT results just had to come in and put me down again. I've never been this hurt in a long time.
Failing your dream school really, really takes a toll on you emotionally. What's worse is I know I'm just as deserving of a spot in DLSU as other people I know who passed. Seeing my classmates who I know are in the same level as me academically (or even lower) pass the exam really makes me feel dumb. I feel stupid and worthless. I lost my appetite to go on for the week. I can smile and laugh, yeah, but the sadness is still there. It's just sitting inside of me waiting for me to finish my 5 seconds of happiness so it can come back and eat at me again. I can't even imagine talking about the DCAT with other people; I might just start crying.
Anyway, I feel like shit and all that, but I know I have to get back on my feet again. I'm working on making this a learning experience. I'm working on the DCAT results too (I'm taking the reconsideration test). I know God has a plan for me, and I might not understand what it is right now, but I trust Him. Lord, ikaw na bahala sakin.
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